Is the internet world out to get me?

I think the internet company has something against me. I finally decide that I'm going to update my blog, somewhat regularily and then what happens? My internet decides that its not going to work. Not only is IT not working but my TV, which is also connected to it, is not working. Talk about a PAIN in the arse. So, I'm going to try to contact my Internet GUY and ask (in broken Korean) if he can help me figure it out. Last time it took 1/2 hour....I'll update with how long this conversation actually takes. I'm sure it's somethin so stupid and trivial like I accidentally unplugged something (though I really hope I'm not that dumb...maybe).


Update on my life,

1) I came back from Canada. I'm finally back in Korea, a place that feels more like home than my mom's house. Funny that I think my mom's house isn't home but really I only lived in the new house for a few months before coming to Korea. Is it wrong to find Korea homey? I like being someone different in this country. Sure, I don't get to act super obnoxious like I do at home but is it really necessary? When I went home, my brothers friend Houser told me that I'd calmed down alot and that he missed the old Annie. I guess I have changed, but I wouldn't say that it's been in a bad way.

2) I moved into my new house. I have two separate bedrooms, a BATHTUB!!!, a huge kitchen, and a living room. It's basically what would pass as a normal 2 BDRM condo in Canada but is the biggest place that I have stayed in yet. I am anticipating a spike in all of my bills (more than double) but that is neither here nor there considering I'm paying 100.00 a month for rent!

3) I've decided to go to University next year. I'm still trying to decide where I'm going to go. There is a pretty good school in Korea that I'm going to be doing some research on. Also, there's a school in northern BC, and I'm going to check out a few more schools in the States. Where I go is still undecided. I'm a little nervous about deciding. It's my future and I shouldn't take other people into my decision. Where I go will put a huge strain on my relationship with Hodge. I know that we could make it through but I struggle with my decisions. Moving back to North America could either make or break our relationship. Oh, I know all the things that people are going to say about this arguement. If its meant to be it will be, don't sacrifice your own life for a man, your future is more important than some boy. But those who say these things are only trying to look out for me. They don't think that one of the reasons I am happy is because Hodge is in my life :)


That's it for now....sorry no pics.

Annie

ON STRIKE ANNIE

I have decided that I'm on strike until further notice. I came home and had all these grand plans to update my blog. I brought a burned CD with some of the pics I want to add from a long time ago.....and I have access to a computer 24/7. HOWEVER, upon arriving at home I was asked why I haven't updated my blog in a million years? I replied, oh well I didn't think people actually read it. And to be honest, I figured I was just writing to myself, not the most fun when you think about it. So, until I see fit, or until people begin to respond to my blog, I will be on strike. No longer will I be writting witty captions for stupid photos of me. Nope....strike.....

*Note....for those who got on the slow train, the way to stop this strike is to respond to my blog. Let me know that you are enjoying reading it. Leave your name. Do something to let me know that my blog is part of your weekly enjoyment....(I may increase to weekly...if I get enough responses!)

Cheers from "ON Strike Annie"

A happy post

I just figured it is time for me to provide you all with another update on my life.


I'm doing a lot better now. Hodge and I worked out our differences and we are happy in love and actually together now. We both decided that it is worth it to be together as I know for sure that I can't live without him :) I hope that he feels the same way....I doubt hope is needed :)

Most of you know that I recently moved to Wonju, GangwonDo (about 2 hours outside of Seoul City). I got a job working at a university teaching the mandatory English course to Freshmen and Sophomores. I LOVE this new lifestyle. I really enjoy teaching these students because they often have something productive to contribute in class. Sometimes, I actually feel like I'm helping these students improve their English. This is a really great feeling.

I finally have a nice looking house. My back yard is a mountain/graveyard...but that's okay because it looks beautiful.





I started Korean language classes again too. My classes are a little bit difficult for me but I will work hard to improve my Korean. I had to choose a korean name for myself. My Korean name is An So Yeon. An--like the sound of my first name (but would actually by my last name), So-- which means cute, and Yeon--which they described as Woman. I really want to be able to communicate with my Korean friends, and with my Korean coworkers. Wish me luck :)


My house is awesome. Everything looks exactly like I want it too. I bought some stuff online for the first time last week. It all arrived in less than a week, I was super impressed. There are only two more things I need for my house to make it absolutely perfect: curtains and my pictures from china in frames and hanging on the wall! I hope to find a framing shop tomorrow in Wonju. That is my goal for the holiday tomorrow:) Well, that, review my Korea, and make lesson plans for next week:)

I'm going to leave you with some super cool pictures of my snail....enjoy :)

Stalker

So, I've spent the past hour or so searching for things about Hodge on the internet. Maybe this is creepy, but I wanted to find some things that maybe he'd done and not told me about. Like a new band website or something like that.

Honestly this break-up thing is harder than I'd imagined. I thought it was supposed to get easier as time goes on. Every time I seem his picture I get this ache in my chest, like something really important to my life is missing...someone is missing in my life. Hodge, this isn't easy for either of us. I wish there was a way you could forgive the things that I've said and allow us to work together and make our relationship work. I've made many mistakes in my life and apparently I'm not getting any better at making my own decisions.

Anyway, I found this old blog of his and his ex-gf (she seemed kinda like a psycho Hodge---you know the blog I'm talking about) from about 4 years ago. You've been able to forgive people for some pretty awful things and you've been stronger than I think I could ever be.

I don't know if you are going to read this, think about this or even think of me.
Maybe you are going to think I'm a total nut job (not far from the truth) that I would blog about my feelings like I'm a 15 year old kid again. Truth is, I don't know where to turn, you always told me to write to you. Now that you're not there to receive or read my letters, who can I write to?

I wrote a song.....I'm going to put some music to it....but it's gunna take a while.

No Longer

I've felt you push away
gets harder for me each day
it hurts to know that you
no longer want me
in your arms

I want to reach through the dark
hold onto your hand
know that I want
to stand by your side

I've tried "sorry" a hundred times
made no difference in your mind
it hurts me to know
you longer want me in your heart

I reach through the dark
to hold onto your hand
I want you to know
I stand by your side

Forgetting is not an option for me
your my life, and always will be
but baby, it hurts me now
how could you let me go?

So I tell you to... ...

Reach through the dark
and hold onto my hand
I want to always be
forever by your side, forever in your heart, forever... forever...




Okay that's sappy I know. Is it the break-up me talking? Yah probably. I know its a shitty song....I can't write like Hodge can. I wish I was that talented.

Well, in my stalking of Hodge on the internet I did come across something that made me laugh and pull the heart strings a little. I found a pick of hodge when he was a few years younger. It made me laugh, cause he really hasn't changed that much....



Okay over and out :-I

The Presentation !

As most of you know, every year the hogwans in Korea do a presentation. It's usually an excuse for the school to show off the students talents in an attempt to get more students at the school. This year was no different.

This student wanted his picture taken.
And again...
Super star Anne-Marie Teacher
Don't mess with him!

The students dress up in these often hideous and rarely cute outfits. Some of the outfits are boarder line slutty....don't worry I made sure my five year olds didn't have their bellies showing. Unfortunetly they were stuck wearing these hideous puffy hats. Oh well.....you can't win them all.
My kids sitting down and coloring while they calmly wait for their turn to perform for their parents.....they had no idea what was going on......poor little guys.


These boys were being bad. They were not from my class but they were still being bad and so I, being the EVIL teacher, told them they had to stand against the wall. Yes they are dressed up like blue and yellow bears :(


The End.

Thanks guys

I just want to thank everyone for all the moral support and help in the past few days. This has not been a good week for me. It's been difficult, trying, and heartbreaking. I'm going to be spending the next few weeks putting the pieces of my life and my heart back together. Until then...
Here are a few pictures that I hope can cheer up my blog a little.....it needs it

Annie

This is the wonderful cake I made for Hodge for Valentines day....I'm sure he and everyone that ate the leftovers would agree that this was simply divine! Thanks for the recipe mom!

Yes! this man is standing on top of the wires on this power pole! Only in Korea....no harness and no one else around. These were taken near my old home.


This is a typical snowy day in Daebang........no I know it doesn't look like much for the folks at home.....but this is a snowy day in Seoul. And yes for us.......it was cold. And yes the snow usually melts right after it lands.

These were my students (minus one)



That was HeeMin's grrrrrrrr I'm angry face! Niceuhhhh

I don't know what I've done

I feel absolutely horrible right now. I broke up with Hodge today. I do know what I've done...but I'm scared that this was a huge mistake, that we won't be able to be friends, that he's going to forget about me and just move on with his life. It's been two days past a year since we officially started dating. I'm not going to get into the details but I knew i loved him from that moment.

I think the hardest part about breaking up with someone that you truly love, is hurting the other person. I know I hurt right now but honestly that isn't what I'm thinking about. I'm thinking about Hodge. I am thinking about how much he must be hurting right now. He's been too good to me.

Needless to say, we have started drifting down our own paths. Hodge told me some things that I've tried to accept and haven't been able to. It's hard to let that someone that you love so dearly go. I just want him to be happy in life, live comfortably and succeed. I don't think he can do that with me, as much as that hurts.

Anyway.....I guess other updates will be waiting until I bloody well feel like updating.

Annie