Calling Home- A sad story

Why is it that I'm the only one that is responsible for calling home?

This is my little venting session.

In the past I've emailed friends. I've written them extensive messages. I've even called them (though not as much as I should I suppose). But yet, I get a little one-liner from them back. I understand that everyone has busy lives. I do too, but I don't forget about my friends at home. I guess I figure that just since I'm in another country doesn't mean that I should be forgotten about. When I do come home, people don't even make the effort to take time out of their busy schedules to see me. I mean...I travel to the town their staying it, and they don't even give me a long-distance-free phone call. This isn't everyone. Just some people. One of my other friends are going through similar feelings of "distancing" I'll call it. It's like I've become an inconvenience now that I'm living so far away. People only seem to talk to the people that are with in the same area code. and even then, I have to make the plans. I have to make the effort to go and see these people. I understand that I have moved to another country but don't you think that friends would call you once you got into the country? Or atleast stop by your house. Maybe I've become bitter towards the whole process after going home twice and being in Korea for almost three years.

That brings me onto my family. The only time I hear from my brother is if I contact him. He's never on MSN. He never emails me. Right now, I don't even know if he's alive. I know he's going through big changes in his life right now, but I would appreciate if he would put some effort into being my friend (which we have been since we went to Uni together).

My mother and father: Last time I was home, I set up a Skype account for my mother. I put money on the account so that she could call me anytime that she wanted. I always have my cell on so that wouldn't be a problem. I even programed my phone number into Skype for her and told her I would renew the money when she ran out. Have I received a phone call yet? No. The only time my mother emails me is when she thinks she has a job opportunity...and usually that is my father emailing only with the link of the possible job that I'm in no way qualified for. I haven't called my mother in over two weeks...well over. She hasn't messaged me, emailed me or called me. Even my mother, who considers herself my best friend hasn't stopped to take the time to make sure I'm okay. I've been wanting to call her but each time I think about it I stop myself. I know its the wrong thinking but I think if my own mother isn't going to call or email after I've put all the effort into making it possible, why should i? I have a lot of resentment towards this "me" mentality that is swimming through my head. But I can't stop the way I feel. I keep getting told that I shouldn't put myself into other people's shoes but its hard when I see my friend getting phone calls every Sunday like clockwork which last about an hour each and parcels every 4-6 months.

I feel like people in Canada have forgotten who I am simply because I'm not there. I haven't forgotten these people and I have tried to make an effort to talk to them...but no one takes time out of their busy schedules to call me up or even shoot me an email. I feel like I'm now doing the same thing that my family and friends at home have been doing for three years....distancing themselves. anyway. Venting session over. I really hope that my mother reads this and realizes that communication goes both ways, even when your daughter lives in a different country.