I don't know what I've done

I feel absolutely horrible right now. I broke up with Hodge today. I do know what I've done...but I'm scared that this was a huge mistake, that we won't be able to be friends, that he's going to forget about me and just move on with his life. It's been two days past a year since we officially started dating. I'm not going to get into the details but I knew i loved him from that moment.

I think the hardest part about breaking up with someone that you truly love, is hurting the other person. I know I hurt right now but honestly that isn't what I'm thinking about. I'm thinking about Hodge. I am thinking about how much he must be hurting right now. He's been too good to me.

Needless to say, we have started drifting down our own paths. Hodge told me some things that I've tried to accept and haven't been able to. It's hard to let that someone that you love so dearly go. I just want him to be happy in life, live comfortably and succeed. I don't think he can do that with me, as much as that hurts.

Anyway.....I guess other updates will be waiting until I bloody well feel like updating.

Annie